I’m feeling edgy and anxious. My room is cluttered. Purses, gym bags, and books strewn haphazardly around my room. It’s a little bit of chaos, somewhat descriptive of my state of emotions at present. I want my life in order. I want things settled and organized. I want focus and consistency, stability and control.
But, that is not a flight attendant’s life. That is not my life. That is not life. Period.
I’m not saying to disregard goals, plans, or schedules (the previous blog was all about my goals). Routine is important. Routine keeps babies happy. Routine keeps adults happy, but there is a point at which one must accept what is out of the sphere of control and learn to adapt.
Life is not a predictable recipe where you can put in two cups of success, one cup of great relationships, a teaspoon of adventure, and wah-lah, concocted perfection. There are those unexpected surprises, the delayed aircrafts, the annoying kid that won’t stop kicking the seat in front of you, and that damn h key on my keyboard that only works sometimes (subsequent blogs may just need to be typed sans letter).
It seems that feelings of overwhelm come for a visit when I am about to leave for a trip, a personal adventure, and in two days, I hope to be off to see new sights. I just haven’t picked a destination yet. There is so much that I want to see. The world. It’s a big place.
My friend sent me this link. Watching the video gave me the chills. Marrakech, Thailand, Buenos Aires…? Amazing. The guy that made the video quit his job, bought a one-way ticket, and left. He saw the world. And now look at what he has created by sharing the beauty he has witnessed? And I’m guessing there were times he felt overwhelmed too.
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It all works out.