Six days and I didn’t see an airport or step foot on an airplane. I stayed in the same place every night. I woke up every morning to the sound of Dad throwing an assortment of fresh veggies into the juicer, the combination of carrots, lemon, and ginger, creating a bright blended liquid known as Killer C. I took a break from my habitual Soy Cappuccino drinking, my caffeine dependency apparent when every day, I took much needed two hour naps. I felt as though I was catching up on all of the hours of shut-eye I’ve misplaced since 2013 started.
Mid-afternoons welcomed me with another fresh blended drink, best enjoyed on the deck- the sunshine, sea, and sips, sending all worries away. I was lulled to sleep with ocean waves and opened my bright eyes to their comforting consistency in the morning. The combination of every day exercise; beach walks, biking, and hiking up a certain favorite hill made my body and soul happy. The week with the family at the rented beach house on the California Coast, in celebration of The Grandparent’s 65 years of wedded bliss, became for me, a week of much needed detox, renewal, and space of peace.
I want this to be the view from my bedroom window. Forever.
Grandparents in love. Forever.
Above the clouds. Away from the crowds.
Life easily catches unstoppable momentum, and when you finally realize that you should slam the brakes, to slow down the pace, you have already hit the dangerous zone of an all out crash. This California Coast change of direction; the all out cleanse of a completely whole food, Vegan, and mostly Gluten Free diet, had my body, initially, whining in discomfort, but after a few days, cheering with energy and stamina. I had not understood how close I was to an accident of wearing out. I feel like I’m a fairly self-reflective and intuitive individual, so I think I know what I need most of the time, but I had missed all of the cues. This year has been taxing for me with goodbyes, moving, dating, working, etc. I had no idea how much I needed to locate pause.
As individuals, we often sense out of balance in our lives, realize a need for change, but grab for inappropriate solutions or temporary fixes just to get by. Sub coffee for sleep. Alcohol stands in for emotion. Sex parades as love. It’s like we put an adult twist on the little kid shape sorter game. Remember with the circle shapes and triangle or square punch outs in a wooden or plastic cube? It’s learning for little ones, but our “mature” version turns destructive when we think the triangle shape pairs with the square cutout. Someone smart said something along the lines once that, “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” This is true.
I know that I make excuses why living healthy is too hard or “I can’t do that right now.” Some of my go-to reasoning has included statements like:
- “But, my flight attendant job schedule is too crazy!”
- “All my friends are going out and drinking tonight. I know I need to sleep, but I don’t want to be left out.”
- “I don’t want him to be my boyfriend, but there’s no harm in a little fun, right?”
- “The gym on the hotel overnights is crappy, I can’t get a good workout in.”
- “Healthy food is expensive.”
The excuses can continue for days, and the more days I excuse myself from honest accountability, the habits created become harder to break. When I make excuses in my life, it comes down to one thing: Want. I want to do what I want to do. I lose sight of my goals. I become busily distracted with the chaos of my life, and slowly fall into unhealthy patterns. It’s a sacrifice to wake up early just to squeeze in a workout before a long day of flying. Right now, those sweets look good. And, I would rather have just a little fun with him than focus on the reason I want to be distracted. I’ll take care of the important stuff later!
The “take care of it later” attitude will keep you living in a misdirected dream world, and one day you will wake up and hate the destination where you have landed. Don’t get so busy with your life that you are living now, and forget about the life that you actually want to live. Living the life of your passions, dreams, and desires is part of living healthy. To live healthy takes more than just focusing on your eating or exercising. It requires you to take time to understand yourself. You need to face yourself honestly and candidly. What in your life is inhibiting your success? Are your daily choices bringing you closer to your goals or flying you further away? When you begin your live healthy journey, some of the people in your life won’t be able to keep up. You may be misunderstood and feel alone. It may seem to be a futile pursuit and you fear failing. You may wonder if the reward will be worth it. Pick up. Try again. Your live healthy journey can start now in the most simple act as a taking a moment to fuel your day with glass of fresh squeezed fruit and veggie juice. You have to start somewhere. My restart just happened to be in beautiful California, the place that always feels like home
“Alice came to a fork in the road. 'Which road do I take?' she asked. 'Where do you want to go?' responded the Cheshire Cat. 'I don't know,' Alice answered. 'Then,' said the Cat, 'it doesn't matter.” -Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland.