When I got my job as a flight attendant, I had nothing to lose. A�I needed work. A�I needed a radical change. A�I needed a paycheck, a journey, an eyeopening experience. A�I didn’t know at the time that I needed all of those things, except for the paycheck, but life has a funny way of handing you more than you ever asked for, better than you thought you ever deserved, and often more than you think you can handle. A�Last night, actually more like mid-afternoon, I got back to my parent’s home, located in a sleepy little California farm town, and sleepily crawled into my bed. A�It was 3p. A�I slept. A�And slept. A�And slept. A�Fifteen hours after my head had hit my pillow I finally stirred. A�I knew I had been tired, but once again, the depth of complete exhaustion had been lost in all of the busy-ness of my life. A�Misplaced in the midst of the excitement of dating, of working on a TV show, of flying around the country. A�And, in the anticipation of saying goodbye to my employer.
I quit my job. A�
Yep, you read that right.
And as I’m home, in the quiet of my old room, it doesn’t feel real. A�Like, I can’t believe it’s over, but, for the past two weeks, all I have wanted was to be done. A�No more of those planes, those passengers, or that uniform. A�For almost five years the flight attendant life that I was chosen for had it’s way with me; interrupting relationships, shattering paradigms, and enhancing my spirit. A�I had been a confused, and depressed college graduate who didn’t have other job offers, and when offered the job to be flight attendant, I didn’t understand what I was stepping into, but I didn’t care. A�I wasn’t going to fall in love with the career, or the lifestyle. A�That wasn’t the plan. A�It wasn’t a plan to be captured by travel. A�I hadn’t hoped to start writing a blog, or ever envision attempting a project of writing a book. A�Letting go of the employer that has been instrumental to who I am, and what I have in my life is not an easy decision, especially when, where I am going, is questioned.
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So what am I up to next you ask?
Well, I’ll still be a flight attendant, just with a two week intermission in-between, and then four weeks when I’ll be grounded, in flight attendant training. A�It’s a little scary to be unemployed, when I think of it as that, but it’s also nice to know that I am not going to be forced, for at least two weeks, to be on an airplane, unless I want to fly somewhere. A�I had been contemplating a jaunt to Bali, but the lack of sleep and healthful living that I have been currently living in, made any jaunts across the world overwhelming. A�I started a juice cleanse yesterday, which means I guess I’ll stay around the farm for at least three days. A�The juicer, fruits and veggies, and mason jars are here. It makes sense to stay for a minute.
Hanging out on the California Farm
Going to this new airline means that I have let go of a great opportunity in media, one that had me learning a little about production life, flying me around for it, and adding to my income which covered Greta Rose, and all of her mishaps. A�It could have been enough to pay for flight lessons, and my travel love. A�Staying with my airline made sense for so many reasons. A�But, I know what I could expect at the old airline, and for all of the reasons that I used to be so happy working for the company, those had become lost once moving to Florida. A�Florida has been a hard, and what I deem as sometimes stupid move, but in all reality, I need to thank myself for my unconventional decisions at times, because if it wasn’t for this move to Florida, I would have taken this new opportunity. A�I had all that I needed to be comfortable at my airline, and although somedays grumpy, life was content, expected, predictable.
And maybe, that’s exactly why I am moving on. A�ThisA�new opportunity is one that I am absolutely excited about, one that I know, I cannot walk away from. A�Because, although it might not be stability, or job security, it’s an adventure that I have always wanted. A�If I didn’t say yes, I would always wonder what could have been, and I don’t want to live with that question. A�The place that I am at in my life makes this choice logical, practical, and understandable. A�I will be training, and flying with an international carrier, making long-haul flights from The United States, to various destinations in Europe. A�Everyone should know by now the fascination I have with all things foreign, and my undeniable love for Europe, so doing something like such shouldn’t be a shocker. A�I thought moving to Florida was so that I could settle, because that was what I wanted, and I’ve realized not yet. A�Not yet do I really want that. A�There is still too much appeal to the glamorous side ofA�The Flight Attendant Life.A�
Of course, passing thoughts surface often, wondering if I am making a mistake. A�And every time these thoughts occur, I just know that I am not. A�I am moving on, moving forward, and taking calculated risks. A�Taking such actions, with clarity of direction in mind, can never be mistakes. A� I do not see this new airline as the end-all-be-all, but it will be a place to learn, and grow, and prepare me for what is next, and I feel incredibly lucky to be chosen, and wanted as part of this new team. A�As well as A�so little girl excited to get to wear a hat and gloves with my new uniform. A� I’m not sure if a uniform should be a reason to fall for an airline, but I know many men who fall for those uniforms, so what’s the difference really?
I will miss my past employer. A�As bad as it was at times, it was so good to me. A�I was happy, fulfilled, and enjoyed the lifestyle, and friends it introduced me to. A�But, like a relationship with a significant other that has run its course, it’s better to say goodbye before bitter, than hold on because of being too scared to let go. A�I never want to live life too scared to reach my dreams. A�So here I go. A�I’m not sure what to expect, but I expect to be surprised, and I expect to reach my goals, and for now, that is enough.
Last day working in this uniform, and the only time you will ever see a company logo. A�Thank you for all of the adventures:)
I want to inspire you, whether you are wanting to be a flight attendant, are a flight attendant already, or never ever want to be, that you will ALWAYS pursue you dreams, and aspirations (if you watched the Oscars last night you saw this passion). A�That you will stand-up for what you believe in, standing in “your own shoes,” always ‘being you,’ having the courage to jump into the unknown. A�Don’t settle for comfortable, or convenient. A�Know what you want out of life, and be relentless in achieving that which you want.
Be a dreamer. A�Please, always be a dreamer.
Enjoy some photos from the adventures of the past five years.
My best friends
The day that Emily and I graduated Flight Attendant Training, to my very last day at work. A�I look very young, sweet, and innocent in the first photo. A�A few years, a few experiences, and a few countries later…:)